Anonymous Testimony of the dangers of Porn Addiction

Below is a testimony of a Maronite man’s decision to give up watching pornography. If you are struggling with an addiction to pornography, know you are not alone and there are services out there to help you. Seek them out and be inspired this Lent to break the habit. 

‘I was once an addict to pornography. I had always justified the “use” of pornography as harmless, but there came a time when I realised I could no longer convince myself about why I actually needed it.

It has been over four years now since I watched porn. Breaking away from it was one of the biggest struggles of my life. 

The success to my freedom came down to three things:

Confession
Accountability
Courage

Confession forced me to be honest with myself and more importantly to God. I had been to confession many times, but had lied to myself and knew that after the priest gave me absolution I could just come back and ask for forgiveness.

One day, a priest who knew me well, confronted me about it. He said each time you come to confession for the same thing. You need to battle temptation and break the addiction otherwise you will be you are abusing God’s mercy. He reminded me that God always give you mercy, but your reaction to His mercy is also important.

I had a friend at the time who was battling the same temptation. We made an agreement that we tell each other each time we fell into watching porn.

I began praying to Our Lady whenever I was tempted. The temptation began to dwindle and my devotion to Our Lady grew.

As I broke away from my addiction I began to realise that my actions directly impacted on Christ, and that my watching porn was hurting him. I realised that each time I was watching pornography I was standing with the soldiers that had scourged Christ. I began to realise that Christ dwelt within me.

It became very clear to me that I had responsibilities to my family and friends. I began to see that each time I watched pornography I was stripping the dignity of the women I was watching.

What became most obvious as I stopped watching porn was that, finally, I was choosing my Lord.

If you are struggling with porn, I encourage you this Lent to confess, become accountable, have the courage to face the addiction and choose Our Lord.


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